it's been a few days after that "thing"..
and just wan to let u all know..
i'm fine..really fine..
even though sometimes i still will can't stop from thinking..
think abt the past..think abt the promise..
i understand it's not love..
but it's a pure and important friendship for me..
it's always hard to let go than take it..
when u into a relationship deeply..
u will never think about the ending day..
and it's just come..
and all we have to do is accept..
and face it toughly..
i can remembered clearly..that night..
i cried silently..but quite a long time..
1 hour perhaps?
i just can't stop the tears..
they all come so fast,so many,so powerful..
but i won't cry now..
mayb already accept it as a fact..
fate this thing..
wan come then come..
wan go then go..
no people can say a no..
no people can say a stop..
maybe one of my friend is right..
our fate just stop like this..
but at least there is no regret for us..
i guess..
btw...i still cannot really face it completely..
i need more time..
slowly..bit by bit..
till the day i can tell others abt the stories of us vf a smile..
till the day i able to take our stories as a kidding topic..
that day will prove i already able to let go "us"..
i trust that...that day will come very soon..
forgive for my weakness...forgive for my cowardness..
i still cannot say "it's alright.." when others mentioned abt me and him..
i still cannot listen back the songs that he recommended me last time..
i still cannot stare straight to the present that he gave me..
i still will think back the memories..
when i passed by the street that we've go out before..
when i accidentaly heard the songs he recommended me..
when i heard the words that he used to say from others..
when i....hanging on facebook and don't know what can i do..
when i still didn't sleep in the late night..
he used to be a part of my life?
and now i have to take him out..
and remend my whole complete life..
i'm glad to do that... :)
as life go on..
thinking will become more mature..
i know what should i do..
anymore..just wan u all to know..
i'm fine!
thanx for the concern...
do not need to feel bad when u cannot be vf me at that time..
and especially thanx to the friend which acc me at that night..
a tough night.. <3
ya..during tis long holidays..
i picked back the thing that i've already abandon for a long time..
i rewrite my novel..
i don't know how will it be..
but i just don't like something "incomplete"..
btw...something cross my mind recently..
should i?
go oversea?
i'm kinda worry..coz tis time i don't think i did well..
and the entry requirement of oversea school are so high..
i do not want to bcome those type of people which use money to enter school..
but nt the results..
i don't want burden my family as well..
and i also have to arrange time for the english test..
which i do not have any idea of it...
argg..feel like aimless..
will be well soon..i guess..
never lost hope in life..
or else it just another fail life!
ya..found a song..
i think it's quite nice..
sharing is caring.. <3
