unknown world

recently...
my family members all in down mood..
i dunno why..
i dun even wanna noe...
bcoz tat's not my world..
tat's adult world..
shouldn't love juz b simple?
shouldn't love juz b no pain?
or reali no pain,no gain..
adult world reali is an unknown world for me..
everyone juz have their own problem..
but all bring bck home..
then bcome bad mood..
i dun like tis feel..
it's not the world tat i live b4..
my dad...
juz like wheather..
i dunno when it will b rain..
dunno when will b sunny day...
my mum too..
she sometimes so stuborn...
i couldn't talk vf her...
my 1st sis...
juz break vf her bf..
i still remembered tat time she cried in front of me..
tat's was the 1st time i saw her cried..
i feel i hurt too..
and she asked me..
"why can the heart be so pain?"
but i can't ans her..
bcoz tat feeling..
i oredi never try long long time ago..
how was tat feeling?
pain?sick?sad?
but i think she not rasional too..
she will still crying..
i can't understand her..
break oredi..
then juz break la..
juz add 1 more passer-by in ur life..
will veri pain?
my 2nd sis..
she b4 oredi in unstable relationship..
but i reali quite hope she will break vf her bf too..
her bf not satisfied to be her bf..
now i oways saw her cried..
then i will not ask any ques..
bcoz..i noe..
they quarrel again..
i dunno why my sis nid cry for him..
i dun understand how good is him?
well..mayb ppl who fall in love...
will b blind..
i still dun think she is my sis true love..
i reali feel sometimes tat i wanna scold her..
y so silly?so stupid?
but i didn't..
bcoz i noe i can't..
if i said it out..
it won't let my sis's minded more clear..
juz will destroy our relationship..
my bro..
he won't said out and won't show out wat problem he facing..
he juz will show out his bad mood face..
and then my mum will start worry and concern..
but everytime my bro dun willing tell too..
and then my mum will take something to scold me..
for release her stress or mayb angry?
she not even dare to angry my bro..
oways oso is my bro angry her onli..
my bro can dun wash the plates,dun iron his shirt..
and my mum will do it for him..
if me..
i juz will get scold..
mum said..tis is my job..
i noe i'm lazy..
but i gt done it too..
i done all my job..
can mum juz b fair?
when she din wash my clothes..
she even sorry oso din said..
juz said i din tell her i nid wear it..
but when she din wash my bro's shirt..
she will feel sorry..
mum and dad oways quarrel too..
and i try 2 make the feel to be better on both side..
i try to make everyone in a better way..
but sometimes i think my effect still small..
dad still like tat,mum still like tat..
sis still like tat,bro still like tat..
i feel helpless..
i feel stress...
i feel i dun wan tis home..
i wan bck my real home..
i feel i prefer stay in school..
oso dun wan live in tis unknown world..