no idea

definitely no idea on what should i write..
2day gt a bit emo and moody..
i dunno y..juz feel it..
ya..tis week those seniors get the spm results..
but..quite a lot of them oso not as expected..
i gt a senior that i veri close vf..
and he got a bad results for him too..
i dunno how r his results..
but he seems like reali dissapointed for it..
quite worry for him..
hope he will b alright soon..
actually,i dun think results decide everything..
but it definitely decide for short term future..
but i think he veri clever le..
reali...and honestly..
i'm more stupid than him...
so much so much..
now oredi march..
time reali pass soon..
*thing to mention-april is my birthday month..XD
tis year in school..
still ok..
teachers still like me..
but i'm doing ntg tis year..
bcoz gt our "lovely" ketua..
but mayb bcoz of that..
i feel a bit lonely in school..
i nt sure izzit that relat to which ways..
mayb is bcoz the assitant job..
mayb is bcoz the most familiar stranger is not at school anymore..
that's too much possible and mayb..
it make me miss my grandma..
i will miss her when i feel alone,lonely,scare,pain..
i miss the childhood that passed 2gether vf her..
and now..
i'm trying to b strong..
b smart..
b good..
to make her proud..
althought she can't see it..
but i know she will feel it..
bcoz she will always blessing me,mum and my whole family..
no matter where is she..
recently..i'm thinking..love vf idol..
actually..couple vf idol..
is a dream of every fans..
but..it's unlogic..
coz u dun even noe the idol..
u juz noe his/her basic information..
how abt...
his/her personality?
his/her family?
that's too many ques that we still dunno yet..
so..conclusion of mine..
couple vf idol..
is a dream..
is a dream that can't achieve..
but not mean won't achieve..
love tis thing..
is unlogic,unplanning,unreasoning..
i do have a concept on love tis thing..
but i dun think i will gonna try it now..
or mayb future..
bcoz see those friends..
trouble for love..
sweet for love..
sad for love..
is too suffer for me..
i nid a stable life now..
but it's a part of life..
so..no comment on it..
by the way..
piano exam located at 1/4..
hope everything will b alright...