one week gonna gone again

hmm..1 week gonna gone again...
oredi august larr..
not reali wan so fast b form 5..
tis week quite a lot things 2 do larr..
psk,performance,and exam...
but everything still in process...
oways can't fixing..
make me reali tired arrr...
my sis's laptop dunno how larr..
can't open oredi..
so i will can't on9 for some times lo..
i guess so...
veri poor larr...
can't on9..
dunno can do wt again...
ntg 2 do in home..
i found tat 1 senior of our school..
reali..veri...annoying and disturbing larrr....
we practise our performance...
he still said tis said that...
he go for the performance larrr..
actually we oso din hv reponbility 2 perform la...
we juz trying 2 help...
he still like tat..
attitude veri veri veri veri not good...
pls behave larr him..
never realise he is tat kind of ppl...
tis week..
my family members not alright lo..
my bro have a car crash again..
but not seriously..
the point is..
after she crash vf another car..
he juz ran away..
and now he is so scare lo..
my dad and mum too..
and my sis...
said seriously..
i think they 2 useless larr..
juz a while onli..
then couple back liao..
haiz...is veri complicated...
everyday come bck from school..
oso wan facing those those those problem..
in school oredi so so so piss off...
bck home still...
haiz...

oLd tOwN

2day quite a busy day...
everything juz rush rush and rush..
i nid 48 hours for 1 day la..
i reali nid it..
hmm..
2day man yee and ching mei drop at my house...
bcoz man yee wan go yum cha vf me..
and ching mei wan go tuition...
after ching mei leave my house..
man yee on9 see my novel...
and search my novel for let her bring bck home...
and then we chat a while in room..
bcoz after tat we go OLD TOWN have our lunch..
but we have our lunch in 3.30...
so late larr...
but is quite ok..
man yee ordered a chicken noodles and cola+ice-cream..
and me ordered a chicken chop rice and orange yogurt ice..
mine 1 not bad..
but man yee said hers not nice..
hehe...
after finished our lunch...
we chit-chat at there for half an hour..
and then we left oredi..


*seeing my novel


*watching menu


*her cola+ice-cream


*man yee's drink


*my chicken chop rice


*my drink



*our nice desserts!!!^^


*bck home..

*a girl

*my pic..hehe...

unknown world

recently...
my family members all in down mood..
i dunno why..
i dun even wanna noe...
bcoz tat's not my world..
tat's adult world..
shouldn't love juz b simple?
shouldn't love juz b no pain?
or reali no pain,no gain..
adult world reali is an unknown world for me..
everyone juz have their own problem..
but all bring bck home..
then bcome bad mood..
i dun like tis feel..
it's not the world tat i live b4..
my dad...
juz like wheather..
i dunno when it will b rain..
dunno when will b sunny day...
my mum too..
she sometimes so stuborn...
i couldn't talk vf her...
my 1st sis...
juz break vf her bf..
i still remembered tat time she cried in front of me..
tat's was the 1st time i saw her cried..
i feel i hurt too..
and she asked me..
"why can the heart be so pain?"
but i can't ans her..
bcoz tat feeling..
i oredi never try long long time ago..
how was tat feeling?
pain?sick?sad?
but i think she not rasional too..
she will still crying..
i can't understand her..
break oredi..
then juz break la..
juz add 1 more passer-by in ur life..
will veri pain?
my 2nd sis..
she b4 oredi in unstable relationship..
but i reali quite hope she will break vf her bf too..
her bf not satisfied to be her bf..
now i oways saw her cried..
then i will not ask any ques..
bcoz..i noe..
they quarrel again..
i dunno why my sis nid cry for him..
i dun understand how good is him?
well..mayb ppl who fall in love...
will b blind..
i still dun think she is my sis true love..
i reali feel sometimes tat i wanna scold her..
y so silly?so stupid?
but i didn't..
bcoz i noe i can't..
if i said it out..
it won't let my sis's minded more clear..
juz will destroy our relationship..
my bro..
he won't said out and won't show out wat problem he facing..
he juz will show out his bad mood face..
and then my mum will start worry and concern..
but everytime my bro dun willing tell too..
and then my mum will take something to scold me..
for release her stress or mayb angry?
she not even dare to angry my bro..
oways oso is my bro angry her onli..
my bro can dun wash the plates,dun iron his shirt..
and my mum will do it for him..
if me..
i juz will get scold..
mum said..tis is my job..
i noe i'm lazy..
but i gt done it too..
i done all my job..
can mum juz b fair?
when she din wash my clothes..
she even sorry oso din said..
juz said i din tell her i nid wear it..
but when she din wash my bro's shirt..
she will feel sorry..
mum and dad oways quarrel too..
and i try 2 make the feel to be better on both side..
i try to make everyone in a better way..
but sometimes i think my effect still small..
dad still like tat,mum still like tat..
sis still like tat,bro still like tat..
i feel helpless..
i feel stress...
i feel i dun wan tis home..
i wan bck my real home..
i feel i prefer stay in school..
oso dun wan live in tis unknown world..

失去重心

突然..覺得自己失去了重心..
我不再是我..
我變得很不像我自己..
我也不懂得爲什麽會這樣..
我..
失去了我的重心,
對於未來感到害怕...
覺得自己十分無奈...
未來在哪？
我該爲我的理想而向前進？
還是爲了家人對我的理想而向前進？
理想...未來..
仿佛離我越來越遠...
我覺得周圍..
好黑好黑...
對於朋友的不信任..
我道歉..
對於家人的不理性..
我道歉..
對於我自己的無能..
我無奈...
在別人一步一步得踏上成功之路的時候...
我正一步又一步的向後退...
我拼命想向前...卻又不得已的後退..
看著朋友一步一步離我而去...
我只能在遠方嘆息著我的無奈...
體會著自己慢慢...
慢慢..慢慢得失去重心...

something

2day i go 1U to sing K with my sis and bro..

1st time we four hang out 2gether..

it feel weird..but feel great too..

sing K time veri short..

juz 2 hours...

we order a lot of songs..

but most of them is my sisters 1...

they 2 crazy oredi la...

and my bro and i juz a little..

our song all at bhind larr...

so when our turn..

the time finish le lo..

my bro gt sang la..

but most of his song..

he juz "jay style"..

noe wt i mean?

din reali sing..

juz bla bla bla..

and most of them is cut cut cut and cut...

dunno he is go there for singing or watching...

my sis said my sound not bad leh..

can go join the astro competition..

hahaha..

hmm...tis week..

ntg to say abt..

but feel tat tis month..

many ppl easily bad mood lo..

even me..

haiz..ya..

tis week take photo of librarian..

hmm..actually i dun wanna take de..

bt many friends asked me take..

so..take lo..

but..i reali realise tat i'm short lo..

haiz..never tall after primary school life end..

and 1 sad thing did occured in our school...

hmm..our school gt a teacher died oredi..

she is a good teacher..

although she juz taught me 1 year..

but can feel tat..

she is a nice teacher..

and she veri young onli la..

and her child still small..

our psk teacher,puan kamizah told us tat..

tat day she go teacher's house 2 visit her family..

and teacher's little daughter told our puan kamizah tat..

"aunty,mama saya sudah mati.."

how sad was it?

she juz 2 years old...

i can't imagine how was tat scene..

if the character is me..

i definitely oredi can't said out anything..

but tat little girl..

i'm so impress her..

and then puan kamizah told us abt the life journey of teacher..

puan kamizah said..

teacher oredi have cancer such a long time..

juz she veri tabah..

and puan kamizah said actually she recoverd oredi..

but when she pregnant..

the cancer come again..

tis time..

she fight lose vf the cancer..

but she did not fail..

bcoz even at the last momment..

she oso dun wan her friends worried for her..

life...can't be expected..

who noe our life still have how far or how short to go?

appreciate every momment..

miss marlina,may u rest in peace..

a drop of tear

hmm..tis morning..

i suddenly think tat..

actually we have not qualify 2 drop a drop of tear..

y said so?

actually we r veri lucky if compare vf those unlucky children..

said truely...

we all have our own challenge 2 face it..

i noe it mayb will b veri tough..

but tis is our challenge..

i trust tat..

after passing it..

will b a good future waiting for us..

but i noe tat..

sometimes...

we can't control our mind and feeling..

so if u feel wanna cry...

pls..

cry it loud..

as common..

girls like cry..

but actually boys oso can cry..

cry..

is not represent u r a weaker..

cry..

is not represent u r a loser..

cry...

is a process tat represent u grow up..

cry..

is an action tat show ur feeling..

when u feel sad,angry,dissapointing...

feel wanna cry..

CRY IT LOUD..

friends

i confused quite a long time tat i wanna use english or chinese 2 write my post..

well..finally..i decide 2 use english...

mayb tat's more easy 2 type..'

hmm..tis week is language week of my school..

so..many teachers oso let us wrote the essay or the quiz..

but the essay tat let me leave a deep memory is my chinese essay..

bcoz the title of the essay is.."friend"..

when i saw tis title..

many scene hv come out from my brain..

izzit when ppl growing up..

then will start 2 miss those passes?

miss old friends?old memomories?

i remembered when i was form 1..

"dreaming galz"..

many u guys dunno wt mean of tat..

but tat 1 is our group name during form 1..

we gt 7 girls in the group...

well..almost all is pretty gurls o..

and tat year we oredi noe 3 guys from 2A1...

but actually one of them i noe him since i'm in primary school..

they 3 juz like a big bro..

but one of them do like many of our gang..

is fun 2 make fun of them..

haha..but after form 2..

we break..our group break..

is not bcoz of our realtionship break..

is bcoz..many of them oredi transfer..

so..our group break oredi..

but is ok..at least we noe tat..

we r friend forever..^^

but tat year i actually quarrel vf one of the senior tat i have mention...

bcoz he scold me"8"..

bcoz i said to the target tat he wanna chase tat actually he is playboy..

but the truth..

he reali is...

juz tat time la..

now no more le lo..

but i oso feel angry lo..

i juz telling the truth..

y wan scold me...

form 2 i oso gt a group o..

we named it as "sweat gang"..

hahaha..it formed vf 7 girls too..

but definitely not the same ppl oredi..

but tat year is fun too..

many memorable memories did occur at tat year..

we go genting..we high 2gether..play 2gether..

i reali miss it..

but i noe..it can't bck..

bcoz we oredi grow up and getting mature...

and tat year onli i noe..

our life shouldn't juz study..

form 3..how 2 say?

is quite a complicated year..

i quarrel vf my best friend..

even thought we now ok oredi..

but i oways feel tat there is a wall between me and her..

and i realise love can destroy everything..

even is the precious friendship..

but at tat year i oredi noe 1 "new" best friend..

noe y i'm using "new"?

bcoz actually she is not my new friend..

i noe her since we r juz kindergarden o..

but juz not veri friend lo..

her personality actually oso quite like me..

we sharing our unhappy or happy memory,mood,topic...

and i appreciate for her truthly heart for our friendship..

man yee..i appreciate u...

except her..a pau(vanessa) oso b my best friend ever..

but she is not like man yee..

we r not sharing same interest...

but we have the same topic..

hahaha..her personality is quite straight..

she is tat type tat gt wt said wt de..

she dunno how 2 make it more perfect..

in other said..she is HONEST!

furthermore..i oso noe some boy best friends...

like liong..jhun seng..

actually can't said liong is my best friend..

coz he doesn't act like too..

hehe...we less talking in school..

(but he quite less talking vf girls in school too except a pau)

but when we in msn..

we gt sharing our problem...

sometimes he tells me his problem between he and his gf..

sometimes i tells him abt my opinion or my difficult..

is not bad for having tis kind of friend..

but he like 2 eat lo...

he said he live for eat...

lol..

another 1,jhun seng..

actually he looks not bad..

but he oways no confident 2wards himself..

mayb is the effect of XXX...(can't said out..)

well..i think he is the most like 2 share his secret or problem 2 me de..

but i willing 2 listen too la..

due 2 my 888888..hahaha...

but me and him oso will quarrel too la..

juz not many..

but when i guess right wt he is thinking in his heart..

he will said me "terrible"...

and tat year i oso friend bck vf tat senior..

bcoz getting mature oredi ma!!

haha..and we passed our birthday 2gether..

bcoz our birthday is close...hehe...

tis year..a new changing point..

but i definitely is gt fate vf "7" tis num..

every year my gang oso will b 7 ppl..

i noe more best friends..

like nicholas and kar hee..

nicholas actually is a ppl tat quite make me wanna beat him...

he oways make fun of me..

take my things...said me tis said me tat..

i noe he is clever..but can he stupid sometimes?

nvm la..next year he will going bck sc 1...

kar hee..me and her oso noe such a long time oredi..

but din realise she oso can b so high...

now she oways so high vf me and vivian..

conclusion..38..

hahaha..luckily she din see my blog..

if not..she sure kill me...

and i found tat..

i enjoy in sc 2...

bcoz i will feel stress in sc 1..

in sc 2..

everyone juz veri nice..

even my class teacher..

i like tis feeling..

i can't imagine when form 5..

all ppl will stress bcoz of SPM..

tat life was terrible!

now in class...

we all r relatives o..

hahaha..

i gt grandpa,grandma,aunt,mum,sis in my class..

it make me feel like i reali hv my family member in school...

even thought sometimes we will kidding on each other...

even thought sometimes i will angry bcoz of their kidding or noisy..

even thought sometimes i piss off vf the class..

even thought they said i'm stupid,not pretty...

but i satisfied my class..

bcoz it is lovely...haha...

i din even realise i will type those stuff out..

but tis year i reali hv many feeling...

feeling tat i wan 2 express out...

express out.."friends"..

i oways b there for u..