Saturday, January 28, 2012

my CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012

time passed like a rocket...
it already is chinese new year of year 2012!!
this year my chinese new year was a little bit different than previous years..
as the same schedule...i need to go back to my hometown for few days..
the difference was...i came back here at chu er...
for previous years..i always come back here at chu san...
but this is not because of my dad had realised how bore am i in the hometown..
it is because the boss of my dad coming to our house...
so...we can come back at chu er!
by the way...i'm not complaining anything about my hometown...
i love it....but...i already used to the speed of the city..
i cannot adjust to the speed of village...
slow...relax...maybe i can fit in 1 or 2 days..
but definitely not 3 to 4 days..
anyway...it's still my favourite place for relax!
this year the amount of babies in our home had increase...
but...this year i think i didn't have those babies' fate??
this year not much babies like to play with me...
but i think i old already..
coz i still felt very tired...
although i just played vf 1 baby..


had family day in chu san...
hang out vf my siblings...
have korea food for dinner...
weeeeee~~~how lovely..hahahaha

chu si was the most boring day in my cny for now..
i stayed at home...do my homeworks...
teachers gave a lot of homeworks to us..
especially maths teacher!
i got bring my homeworks along me when i went back to my hometown..
but when i took it out..
all my relatives were so "concern" about me lorr...
and some still said i spoil cny mood..
hahaha...so..no choice...i had to keep it..
and enjoyed my cny in hometown!
chu wu was another family day for me!
my sibling and I went for sing k...
that's been so long time we didn't hang out so often like this..
since...everyone of them have their own life...
and their mate...
i always stay in home..
definitely is because i don't have one...
and i don't like to go out..
i'm definitely 100% 宅女...
and had japanese food for dinner that day!!!
weeeee~~~~~~~~~~
i LIKE sushi!

chu liu was one of my memorable day too..
hang out vf my friends...
visiting each others' houses...
chit-chating like before..
but did something that make me felt guilty...
i crashed the trash of a pau's neighbour..
although they kept said "is okay...nvm...juz dun mind on it.."
but...to be honest...
i still mind on it!!!
i very easy to feel guilty...
until i can do some compensate...
then i won't feel it anymore..
but still had fun today..
because i fetched tam home..
hahaha..should be he fetch me one lar...
SENIOR TAM...
by the way,had promised to kim tell her some secrets some more..
but unfortunely...she had to leave before we both have some private time..
hahahaa...so..next time?
i like to share my secrets with her...
maybe is because she stay so far from me...
or maybe is because she is worth to trust...
sometimes..i will think want to share to others too..
but just can't...
i cannot tell a word at all...
so...miss kim kim...appreciate it,pls!
hahahahaha...
2morrow is chu qi already...
but i also already have my plan..
tomorrow my aunties will come my house..
so..it's another family day!!
hope for the best~

Monday, January 16, 2012

新的一章

开学已经接近要一个月了...
到现在才更新我的部落格..
并不是没有时间去更新...
只是...我不知道应该怎么打..
感觉这一年..应该会是充满挫折的一年..
是我太像温室里的小花?还是..今年很衰?
我不知道..也不想知道..
我只想...安安稳稳的过完这一年...
其实...最近心里感到很挫折...
有很多很多的事..都让我感觉很挫折...
并不是我想新年的第一篇文章就写些emo的事...
只是...最近好像都没有好的事情发生..
或许是我的承受能力太差了吧..
以前,我总是老师们口中所称赞的乖学生..好学生..
所以,就算我有什么不太对的地方..
老师们都会包容我...容忍我...
与我达成我要的妥协...
我也从来不知道...当一个..不太好的学生...
不再是..老师们所重视的学生...
是什么感觉...
其实我承认...我并不是很好...
我....没有很聪明..脾气也没有很好...说话也不流利...
有的..或许只是些许的幸运...
但..上了中六..
或许...幸运用完了吧?
靠的..只能是实力了?
很多人..总把我看得太好..
无形中...压力..就来了...
以前面对压力的时候...
因为是老师们所疼爱的学生...
所以..总是可以得到很多很多的鼓励...
现在...我不再是以前的我..
我..只有我自己...
压力...可以让人前进...也可以让人后退...
让人觉得...自我堕落就好了...
感觉我现在就是这样...
甘愿的..成为一个...不太优秀的学生..
甘愿...成为一个...平凡的学生...
比我好的人...比比皆是..
突然觉得...无助的感觉..又回来了...
就像..那时候..考完spm一样...
无力,无助...迷茫...
偶尔会对自己没有信心...
但今次...的的确确感觉到...
我不行了...累了..
对自己..不肯定了...
希望这种感觉快点散了吧..
我不喜欢这种感觉...
别人总觉得我是很开朗..很好的人..
但其实..我并不是...
我自己..都仿佛已经不能再了解我自己了..
但我的人很倔强...
我不喜欢把握得不快乐..
"分享"给人...
我只喜欢..自己一个人emo...
很抱歉得写下这样emo的文章..
但我只是想..抒发我的感觉..