Sunday, June 19, 2011

h3lLo


HEY!it's been a long time i din update my blog....
coz..really busy for the form 6 stuff...
revision,homeworks,prepare for next lessons..
well...i totally didn't have extra times to do others things..
*hmm.to b honest..used around 1-2 hours to watch drama oso la..XD..
well...specially at fri..
those teachers will give u a lottttt of homeworks..
and that's all nt easy as the daily exercises or what we do during form 5..
it's getting tougher and tougher..
and i used quite a lot of times to do the homeworks lo.
coz i din tuition..haha..
think abt tuition..
but juz feel like..DUN WANNA!
1st..too far oredi...
2nd..form 6 still a lot of things to do..it's juz not study at all..many activities need to do oso..
3rd..i don't wan too depend on tuition lo..coz after go university,there's no tuition too..
4th..i think i will b tired that after school still have to go so far away to tuition..
5th..i dunno where are nice??!!althought i had asked many of my classmates..most of them are same 1 la..haha
well..but i think i need it la..
especially for chemistry..
the teacher is juz S_C_!!!!
haha..cannot type it out..
who noe mayb someday some teachers or students found my blog..
and i think i will get a serious punishment!
other teachers are quite alright till now..
juz i still cannot found out that..
WHY TEACHERS ARE SO LIKE TO CALL MY NAME??!!LOLZ..
errmm..what to say again?
ya...recently feel a little bit of depressed..
one of the reason is those teachers keep telling us..
"form 6 are nt easy as ur SPM..and bla bla bla"
we noe that..we don't need the teachers to tell us again AND again..
another reason is..those friends...
who might actually seeing my blog right now...
oso feel depressed and they seem so sad!
make me feel like..errmm...sc stream is really a mission impossible?
well..i'm nt wanna say that how smart am i..
i never agree vf that..
i'm nt smart at all..
but i juz wanna to try the BEST of my life!
i don't wanna gv up so easily..
*i nt mean that who already transfered or plan to transfer from sc stream to art stream are so easily to gv up..
i juz wanna face it maturally..
and think it as a challenges...
coz i noe..there will b so many challenges in our life..
we cannot oways escape from the difficulties and juz go for the easier way..
i noe i noe...
as a zho said..
"sometimes...dream and realistic are so far apart..."
but at least u try ur best!
at least u passed through it!
i'm nt going to change my target,my ambition or even my interest..
juz onli bcoz the other ways are easier..
i noe that i might cry many times in the future times..
bcoz of the tough syllabus..
cannot score good marks on the exam...
cannot follow up what teacher's saying..
but i'm sure there are some way to do vf it oso..
*honestly..recently math t do had a small test...and i really didn't score veri well..and i failed it..but it doesn't mean what..i noe that...coz it juz a start!!nt the end!
i had a thought b4..
that what should i do if my stpm didn't score well?
how my future gonna b?
well..i think i might go works..
or juz retake stpm..
or juz study 1 or 2 years of colleges again..
that's never b a late..
A sucess life doesn't mean that u muz b a doctor,lawyer,big boss and etc then onli will b call as SUCESS!
for me,a sucess life is the life that u live vf happiness and cheerfully..
doesn't matter that u are juz a worker,salesman or etc..
anywhere..anyone have their own defination on "SUCESS LIFE"..
and i respect everyone's defination..
i respect everyone's choice!
i juz hope that after u make it..don't regret on it!
juz go for it!
coz if u gv 1s to urself to regret..
u will oways think for the regret and oways think abt the negative side..
GOOD LUCK!
there's oways a rainbow after the heavy rain..
and as ppl said..
there oways have another window after the god have close ur door...

Sunday, June 5, 2011

怀疑

有时候,真的很喜欢怀疑自己..
怀疑自己..有那么聪明吗?
有那么有人缘吗?有那么平静吗?
每次的怀疑都不会让我得到答案...
今天,某个怀疑..又再次地浮现了..
怀疑..朋友有永远的吗?
在朋友之间,是不是又存在着某种利用的关系?
或许有吧..某种利用的关系..
最近跟一位好朋友失去了联络..
有点寂寞呢..
好像少了个可以倾诉的对象..
我也不知道她现在到底怎样了..
常言道“人心难测”..
这个道理,或许越大了越能明白..
现在这个时代,先看面,后看人..
每个人一开始都是对着你笑嘻嘻...
没人能察觉出那可能藏在心底里的阴谋论...
说阴谋好像有点过分了..
或许用....不同于脸上表情的想法..比较好?
坦白的说,我个人的第六感比较敏感..
一点点的事情足够让我想很多事情..
一个普通的句子,足够让我用很多方式去演绎这段句子...
我个人心眼很小..但不容易表现出来..
但这心眼..来得快,去得也快..
曾经也怀疑过自己..
真的可以让自己不喜欢,不爽的事情都去的那么快吗?
可以?不可以?可以?不可以?
这两种答案都在我脑袋旋转了很久..
或许的看是什么事吧..
其实有时候也会觉得自己还蛮恐怖的..
我可以明明很难过的时候,
在别人面前装作没事..
我可以明明很不喜欢这样的时候,
在别人面前装作还好...
我可以明明很不爽的时候,
在别人面前装作什么事也没有..
我不会主动说些什么...
除非是一些我觉得可以说的事..
我可以明明很想要买下某些东西,
可是别人的一句话,
或者在意别人的眼光,
我就不买了..而且也不会表现出我想要..
我还可以做很多我想不到我会做的事...
人心难测,表里不一..
或许就是我这种人..
怀疑,让我出现了不安定的感觉..
让我觉得,真心的朋友有几个?
真心的话语,有几句?
现在真的有种很难解释的感觉...