sweet 17+stress

my birthday had been celebrated vf my best friends..
1st time celebrate vf friends but not family..
felt happy 2ward it actually..
well..tis year i had received 7 presents..
actually8..but the present nid next month onli recieved..
and many many many birthday wishes...
thanx for all friends..
well..birthday that day go sing k vf friends..
3 ppl go sing k..
hahahahaha..no ppl will rebut the mic la..
juz..veri expensive lo..T-T
but nvm la..1 year 1 time..
so..it's ok la..
recently..quite stress..
easy to get angry..
veri sorry to my classmates for my unreasonable angry..
but sometimes juz reali can't control it..
mayb bcoz i'm holding the jawatan that nid to complete the job that giving by teachers..
but everyone is nt giving co-operation..
especially the stupid ketua!!!!
i'm nt specifying that i'm good in doing the penolong job...
i'm not!!!even i'm doing not well..
but at least i'm responsible for that..try the best in that...
he?juz oways sms and staring his handphone lo..
din come oso din tell me!!!!
come on..the one who doing his job if he din come is ME!!!
can he inform me?
inform oso no nid use 1 hour!
a few minutes onli..
i'm nt request he do wt for the class...
but at least..pls learn responsible and co-operation...
2nd stress..b&k..
well.."my" club...
but actually izzit my club i oso dunno...
many activities oso is after organize orin the process..
onli i noe!
i noe cannot blame who..
bcoz teacher is reali busy...
and i'm busy as well..
can't oways go find teacher..
so..who ever teacher meet..
she juz straightly tell them do the activities..
but when i tried to understand the activities...
trying to help..trying to make everything perfect...
those ppl juz perfuntory me...HEY...pls realise it!!!!
that's my club..
u guys helding activities under my club name..
if u guys have any problems....
the ppl who might carry the responsible is me..
so..can u guys gv me a better respon?
sigh..well..
throw away all the STRESS*UNHAPPY THINGS...
say some happy things..
recently like to take photo in class..
feel like fun..hahaha..
and..oways hugginh vf joceyln in class..
that action oredi b our fix action..
others do feel weird at 1st...
but now..all juz feel ntg oredi..
hahaha..nt much to say actually..
pic had been updated at last post!

latest pic

25/4..

happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me...

wooray...finally step into 17...
well...have fun 2day and yesterday...
but i'm super super tired..
so ntg much to say...
update all my pic in next post....
nitezz!!!

tis year birthday

2morrow is my 17 birthday..
step into a new ages..
count down-ing..
all the best..

busy month

as usual years..april suppose b a free month for me...
but tis year...
it definitely bcome a busy month..
i've no idea y will bcome like that...
i'm rushing many things in tis month..
well..anugerah..help teacher..ko-kurikulum..lawatan and performance..
i will like to say..
my form 5 life..
is nt the life that my body and mind can support..
but..life still go on..
so..
juz keep busying la..
the best way i can do..
oso still gt 1 year to busy for those stuff onli..
next year..
mayb won't have tis chance..
by the way..
the ANUGERAH PELAJAR CEMERLANG..
did felt happy to join for it..
(bcoz prove that i'm a good student)
hahaha..but it's reali BORE...
i noe i shouldn't said that..
but..the truth reali like that ma..
well..but i think that's enough to make my grandma proud..
i trust i can do it better..
hmm...
ya..yesterday is one of my senior+friend's birthday..
well..
happy birthday to him...
he nt usually on9..
and definitely won't see my blog if on..
he is too busy to study..
he is a PELAJAR CEMERLANG..
congratz for him to score straight As in his SPM..
and happy birthday to him!!
all the best!

it's hard to b a good student

i'm try my best to b a good student in school..
i did my homework,did my jobs well..
and suddenly..
i realise..
it reali quite hard to b a good student..
LOLZ..
well..
i think in teachers' eyes...
i do is..
hehe...do act well in school arr..
but,good student sometimes oso will did something common mistake..
example..
i forgot to bring my book last time..
my classmates said to me..
"WAH..veri difficult to see u din bring book..but i bring..hahaha.."
i juz smile to her..and think..
i can't din bring book?haha..
good student..
and 2day..
during add math period..
my mind suddenly fly to others side..
i dunno where it fly..
bcoz it haven reach the destination..
puan tan oredi..
"gan..r u ok??"
i juz simply said..
"yayaya..fine"
well..provement of good student..
defination of good student?
honestly..i dunno..
juz..others think me is..
hahahaha..actually nt that good as they think...
GOOD STUDENT..
so heavy..

complicated

y do things nid go under so complicated?

april

step into april...
a bit happy a bit sad..
happy bcoz of my birthday..
sad..bcoz..
SPM juz left 7 months..
is quite a long time from sight..
but actually it's quite short..
i have not ready yet for step into adult world..
i hope can oways stay in teenager world..
at least..candun worry for so much things 1st..
well..said bck to my birthday!!!
hehe..preparing for going out..
but dunno reali will go or nt la..
but as i noe..
gt 1 lembu will gv me present..XD...
thanx him a lot..
BUT..i wanna said..
i din force him to gv arrr..
since he live so far away..
i oso asked him dun gv de la..
he wan gv onli..anywhere..thanx him..
now,i gt confirm presents..hehe..
thanx them la..
1 is the lembu..another 1 is a senior that noe him since primary school..
he oso is a person that live so far away..
but he oso still wanna gv..
all i can said..thanx him..
my piano exam was passed..
and i think..
it's terrible..
hahahaha..coz dun even noe what the examiner talking abt..
and i play WRONG the scale!!!
should b score better..
haiz..wait the result come out lo..
i think if won't fail then nid to thanx god le..
had a nice chat vf my best friend on sat night..
well..we're talking abt a boy..
but dun misunderstand..
the boy is a best friend or good friend for two of us..
he reali is a nice guy..
he worth a nice girl..
but..things seem like oways not going as ppl thought..
we nt saying the girl not good..
juz..nt suitable for him..
hope he can put down..
althought i noe he can't..
if reali can..
wanna tell him that..
girls reali nt simple as guys think..
girls can more more more more complicated than guys think..
*notice
-not saying any bad words..juz he too not understand girl..tips for him onli.
hmm..what else to say again?
hmm..hmmm..hmmmmm..
i think no..
juz the same la..
still many thought 2wards life..
2ward love..
2wards many things..
ya..recently love to see japanese drama...
wow..there did gt a lot of handsome guys larr...
since quite a long time din saw handsome guys oredi..
so..gt a bit crazy for them..
but..as my last last last post said..
juz a dream..
after a while..
the crazy will lost...
i wanna said i'm nt a loyalty fans..
hahahaa...i oways change 1..
hmm..i think that's all for tis NEW post..

给外婆的信：

外婆，我好久都没写信给你了..

我..最近有点忙..很多事情的去做，去想，去决定..

所以很抱歉，没事常给您写信..

你还好吗？

这样一句普通的问候话..

怎么以前就说不出口了呢？

现在，这么一句普通的问候语..

也只是一句永远都得不到答案的疑问句而已..

外婆..我之前为你写的两篇文章..

我的朋友们都很喜欢噢..

可是，老师就不太喜欢了..

老师说，太口语化了..

可是我觉得..这只是我让自己有感情抒发的通道而已..

并不是要让老师放上校刊的..

所以，老师叫我修改，

我也没修..另一半的原因可能是因为懒惰吧..

但也无所谓啦..本来就不是老师的好学生里的一群..

明天是清明节噢..

很抱歉..我没能去拜祭您..

因为妈妈说您的坟墓还没做好..

所以也去不了..下一年吧..

我一定去的..

昨晚房间的风铃时常在晃动..

我在想..是不是有人会来看我了？

今天想了一想..大概是您吧？

因为婆婆从来就不疼女孙..

公公更不用说..我连他的一面都没见过呢..

您会来看我..觉得我又长大了吗？

犹如您想象中一样吗？

您怎么都不报个梦给我呢？

您不再了这么久，我从来就没有见您到我的梦来..

好啦..知道你是早睡的人..不烦您啦..

对了..要告诉您..我这次考试很乖噢..

拿了7个A..2个B..

可是国语不太好..

不过我说过..会做个让你骄傲的孙..

我会努力的..晚安..

习惯

习惯了你的问候
习惯了你的祝福
习惯了你的关心
但一切习惯都变得不能再习惯后
开始觉得心淡了...
不想再等了..
开始习惯这种不习惯..
开始学习这种不习惯..
现在..我又习惯了..
没有你的问候
没有你的祝福
没有你的关心
学习了独立
学习了坚强
对你轻轻地说声
再见啦..