Tuesday, March 29, 2011

渐渐明朗化

拿到成绩已经快一个星期了咯...
很多人从一开始的不明白,犹豫..
到现在都已经变得明朗化..
很多人已经清楚明白自己要读什么了..
好像只有我还在徘徊着..
犹豫着...
因为我非常的三心二意..
我不清楚哪一个是最适合我的...
我不敢对于我作的决定有100之100的信心..
因为这个决定回决定我的未来...
我想了又想..想了又想...
我还是得不到一个答案..
当我得到答案时...
却一次又一次的被朋友们影响...
我知道这样很不应该..
可是就是很不听使唤的..
我就是会被影响...
无奈..觉得自己有点没用了..
当我决定了读form 6..
却又在想..bio&chemis or physics &chemis?
我不想这么快就决定好..
因为我还不知道bio&physics里面..
我比较喜欢哪一个..
可是form 6就得选择了...
读a-level...很多人都说跟form 6 很像..
而且,读a-level or foundation...
我会选择读taylor...
而那里的学费的却比较贵...
我不想变成爸爸妈妈的一个沉重的负担...
现在很多人都问我..想读什么?
下一步怎么走...
我很多时候都说不知道..
但一些很关心我的朋友就会有一点的骂我...
说我应该打算了...
但我真的不知道应该从那里打算起...
曾经考虑过TARC...
但其实很多长辈都告诉我..
那里并不好..
怎么办呢?
或许..容许我在想多半个月吧...
我一定把它变成明朗化..

Thursday, March 24, 2011

spm results

well...yesterday spm results was came out.
and...honestly a bit disappointed for that..
coz i didn't hit my target...
still less a bit bit...
but...not reali sad on it..
did try my best!
well...now i'm more confused than b4...
wt should i study?where should i go?
a-level?form 6?
both gt their own benefits..
and oso disadvantages..
but i nid to decide it quickly..
coz every colleges seem like open school soon...
SIGH~

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

YES

went for my 2nd car test on tues...
heheh...finally PASS!!!
feel happy and glad for that..
i can't imagine if i still fail it..
i need to go there AGAIN...
and wait for whole day...
gosh!!!is a kind of punishment lo..
by the way...
my sis said i'm getting darker and darker..
she is wondering that how i will bcome darker coz i juz stay at home.
and go no where...
i will like to say..
i got go out lo..
recently oways go out for learn driving,car test...
all those stuff oso at afternoon 1...
face the sun along 1 day..
won't dark????then will b miracles..
but i oso don't think that fair is a represent of beauty la..
althought i'm not a beauty even b4 i'm kinda fair...
well..spm results day come out soon..
and i..haven't decide yet wt i want to study..
but juz like 50% wanna study form 6 and 50% wanna study chemical engineering..
i do gv up pyschology...
i reali interested in tis way..
but...after i think abt it's out way..
feel like..
it's quite not popular in MALAYSIA...
i do not hope that what i study is useless when i go out to work..
i hope i can work on the career that wt i study on...
and i think chemical engineering is quite a good suggestion...
and study form 6 is like..
i need more time to figure out wt i wanna to study..
but,my bro said that study form 6 is a action that wasting time..
so i still think on it..
oredi stay at home around 3 months..
feel like..
time passed soon..
still remembered that when january..
everyone are asking me that wt i wanna study..
i oways answer them that "wait results come out only said la.."
now results realli wanna come out liao..
i still dunno where to go..
sigh...friends around me all oredi noe wt to study,where to study..
but i still...B.L.U.R.......
coz for me is kinda a big decision..
is decide how my future and where my future will going to..
i don't wanna after i study till half way..
only regret on it..
anywhere...
results wanna come out gt 1 benefit..
is that i can see back my lovely friends...
hahaha..
do miss some of them la...
not all..
oso gt some that i don't wanna to see..
i'm thinking that..
is it teacher still remember me?
hahaha..since last time she so sayang me..
hahaha..perasan..
well..look forward on that day la!

Monday, March 7, 2011

原谅我

好久好久没有update我的blog啦...
其中一个最大的原因是因为我懒惰..
其次是因为...最近没什么灵感呢...
不过!有没有人在关注着我的blog业是一个问题啦...
但是!避免被别人投诉..
还是update update一下呗...
本来我是关了电脑..
因为我已经习惯了,
星期五晚上十点就关电脑..
听radio...因为有我非常喜欢听的节目..
有很多感触都是从那里听来的...
但是又觉得太久没有update了..
趁着听那个节目有感触的时候..
写下我最新的一篇文章吧..
我从来对自己的事情都是三分钟热度的人..
对别人的事我却紧张得很..
比如说,我的小说..
写写下又没写了..
本想继续写下去..
至少有个结局...
但又的的确确的觉得非常的懒惰..
而且也怀疑的确没人在看..
或许不久后我又会写会了吧..
但对于即将变成18岁大人的我..
给自己的第一个承诺就是地完成我第一篇的小说...
加油!!!!
其实,我脑海中的确也没有像上次在学校的时候那么有想法了...
毕业了,脑袋也生锈了..
现在的脑袋啊..的确没以前那么灵活了..
我现在都一直在想说我还可以怎么样把小说继续下去...
怎样才可以把它写得更精彩..
纵然,我的脑海里已经有了我第二篇小说的想法...
曾经想过要放弃我第一篇的小说..
但想想...无论如何,
它都是我第一个爱的结晶...
就这么轻易地把它毁灭了..
好吗????左想想,右想想..
还是舍不得...
会尽力吧!
灵感又飘了..
下次再update一些有意义点的吧....