幸福的传说

幸福很渺小..很难找..

世界那么大..幸福那么小..

但只要你相信..

幸福常常都在身边围绕着...

幸福可以无限放大..

~幸福~

可悲

一个家如果用到“酒店”来比喻..

真的是太可悲了!!

love OR study

tis year form 5 oredi..
but when i look around my friend..
no matter who..
they all are upset&worry abt LOVE..
that make me wonder..
as our age..as our form..
we should think abt love OR study..
coz i dun think can carry both..
love shouldn't act as a block of our study and life..
but usually it DOES..
bcoz human r emotional animal..
sometimes i will think..
if between friendship and love..
which 1 will ppl choose?
basically..they will choose love..
but for me..
i will choose friendship..
honestly..
teacher oso said love is the most unrealistic thing in tis world..
but human usually will go for the unrealistic thing..
then i wonder again..
then wt friendship stand for?
a back up for lonely?
think a long time..
can't figure out..

oways nt happy

i reali oways nt happy tis year..
but tis year reali ntg special that can make me happy..
i did sad 2day again..
not onli think abt my grandma..
and oso..
think abt..
i nt suitable to b assitant..
reali think it deeply deeply and deeply..

school life 2010..

it's been opened school 2 weeks oredi lo..

i finally go through the whole week school process..

last week..bcoz of my grandma stuff..

i can't go school on fri..

so it's doesn't count as complete school process..

well...since i din said happy school day last week..

i nid to say now..(althought is late)

HAPPY SCHOOL DAY!!

hmm..tis year..

i b assitant again..

dunno should b glad or sigh..

mayb i should glad..

so many ppl support me wt..

even madam tan oso..

she din even asked for vote..

oredi wrote my name...

haha..reali thanx teacher for the support...XD..

but tis year the ketua of our class changed oredi..

is nicholas...

hmm..honestly..

me and him nt that friend and close..

but..i wanna said..

he reali a good ketua la..

better than azroy so much..

and bcoz of him..

i veri veri veri less do thing tis year oredi..

almost do ntg..

hahaha..all gv him to do la..

tis's wt ketua nid to do la...

nt like last year..

all stuff is i do 1..

haha..

veri thanx him for kurang beban saya..

haha..he quite kesian oso la..

juz 1st year b ketua..

but our class move to the 3rd floor...

oways nid to walk down and climb up again..

nvm...he will get his reward..

that's sanjungan from all the classmates..

tis year..our class change the sej,pjk&psk teachers..

it's nt that bad..

but we mostly hope is change bm&bi..

hahaha...but not sucessful lo..

anywhere..good news is bm teacher gonna go give birth oredi..

it's next next week..

so..i think we gt a month to rest..

but after that..she come bck again..sigh..

the new principal was SUCK!!

she definitely dun like chinese lo..

oways malay malay malay..

come on...said english la..
u r the head in school leh..

english definitely more important..

althought we r in malaysia..

but the world famous and suitable language is english..

how important was english?

u still said malay..

luckily tis is my last year in smkih..

if nt..i sure will "beh da han"

ya..nid to mention is..

my master class is coming..

sigh..my piano song not even can play veri veri smooth leh..

still oways get scold..

oredi wan master class...

god bless me lo..

master class will locate at 24/1..

it's sok qun's birthday..

nid ask qun to wish me good luck..

january gt so many ppl birthday la..

i almost bankrap liao..

but oso wish all the january babies..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

给外婆的话:

外婆..知道你不懂英文..
所以就特别为您写上华语..

您还好吗？

您已经在您的新家有两个星期之久了..

还习惯吗？

我现在已经很好了噢..

没有常常哭了..

只是在自己一个人的时候..

难免会为您哀悼..想想您...

想想从前..心情也特别容易不好..

但不用担心..这些只会发生在我一个人的时候..

我现在都有在上学..

非常少一个人..

您怎么都没来报梦给我？

或许您在那里过得太舒适了吧...

所以没有什么特别的事想和我说..

外婆..我们现在大家都很好..

只是烦恼着..新年不能去您家了..

因为您不在了..怎么办呢？

大概会去阿姨的家吧..

不用担心噢..

外婆..我献上一朵勿忘草给您..

代表我对您的永远的思念..

给外婆的信

外婆..
你入土为安已经两天了..
你在“那里”..还好吗？
有人服侍你吗？
人是不是要失去了..
才会懂得珍惜呢？
纵然你已经去了“那里”很多天了..
我还是很想你..
我还是释怀不了...
我真得很想很想见回你...
今天..我一直做功课..
来逼自己不要再想你...
可是..我做剩华语作文...
可是我一直做不完...
它的题目是马路如虎口..
这个题目往往就是和死亡联系在一起..
死亡..这两个字..
在最近..对我来说..
有点沉重...
当我提起笔...写下几个字后..
我还是不断的忆起阿姨那时的声音..
声音重复又重复..
哭泣的画面重现又重现..
画面总是很清晰..
声音总是很清楚...
我到底该怎么做呢？
外婆..我不想忘记你..
可是..现在我想起的你...
是躺着的你..
躺在棺材里的你..
我已经想不起以前带我买玩具的你..
以前看到我们回来就很开心得你..
以前在我旁边说股市的你...
我都想不起了..
想起的..
是动也不动的你..
没有气色的你...
躺在那里动弹不的你..
外婆..
我很想为你写一篇很美很美的文章..
可是我能力有限..
没有办法用最美的词形容你的一生..
没有办法用最贴切的字形容你对我们的疼爱..
没有办法用最透彻的字..形容你生病时的痛..
外婆..
我真的很没用..
辜负了你的疼爱..
但我答应你..
我会好好的读书..
那很好的成绩..
我会做个令你自豪的孙..
可是我真的好想你啊..
外婆..

回忆

犹记得上一次我哭的时候...
都是为了些小得不能再小的事...
但最近..我哭得很凶..
眼睛都肿了..
我..的外婆在星期二的晚上去世了...
每当想起这件事..都会有很想哭的感觉..
我还记得那天晚上..
阿姨那颤抖的声音..
告诉我..外婆走了..
现在回想起..仍然是记忆犹新..
这或许是我一辈子都没有办法忘记的声音..
那一天我真的哭得很凶..眼睛都肿了..
可是另外一天..我还是去上学了..
因为我不想呆在家..
不想那么快去看外婆..
我..不喜欢悲伤的气氛..
我一直一直都在祈祷迟点放学...
可是..那一天..时间好像过得很快..
我拖着沉重的心情..
跟我爸爸他们一起去看外婆了..
在那个沿途中..
经过了我外婆的旧处..
我想起了很多很多很多的回忆..
我从小就是给外婆照顾..
外婆非常非常的疼孙子..
无论是外孙还是内孙..
外婆都一视同仁..
还记得小时候..整天去外婆家住..
外婆都会买玩具..零食给我..
可是说..我要什么就有什么..
她有时还会带我们去shopping mall走走...
往事一幕幕的呈现..
我内心难过得不得了...
其实在外婆去世的那一晚..
我一直就有不祥的预感..
在那之前..我还觉得应该去看看一看外婆..
但..都来不及了..
我连外婆最后一面都见不到..
近期来都没有去看过外婆..
当我想看的时候..
却不能了..
当我看到以前那么疼我的外婆..
现在已经不能动了..
只能闭上眼睛...躺在那所谓的床..
我恨不得冲上前去..
大声地喊..
“外婆..你起来啊..你为什么躺在那里??!!!我叫你起来啊..我们还要一起过2010年的农历新年啊..下个月就是了..为什么你不起来????”
这三天..我真的累坏了..
阿姨..妈妈..表妹..表弟..姐姐..全部都在哭..
我的心真酸了一下..
外婆..你不是最疼我们这班孙的吗？
为什么你舍得让我们为你哭得那么惨？
今天外婆终于下葬了..
在看完外婆最后一面的时候..
眼泪更是止不住..
我..我们..再也看不到外婆了..
再也吃不到外婆煮的白斩鸡..
再也听不到外婆的唠叨..
再也去不到外婆的家了....
每次新年除了在家乡看夜景..
就是去外婆家...
每次外婆家都很热闹...
每个亲戚都在聊天..
大人就在厨房煮东西..
小孩子就在玩牌..
然后等着拿红包..
每次外婆的就是最大份的..那时候真得很开心..
现在..都没有了..
甚至会觉得..新年已经没意义了..
我真的很后悔没有常常去看外婆..
很后悔没有常常和她说话..
以前总觉得..还会有很多时间..
但事实往往很残酷..
外婆..你一路好走了..
不用担心我们了..
我们都会好好照顾自己...
你也要好好照顾自己...

a new life

as everybody noe..new year oredi came..
is 2010 now...
tis year definitely will b a new life for me..
bcoz..
i FORM 5 oredi..
lolz...still think ownselves not that mature lo..
but..form 5 oredi..
tis year sure gt a lot of ceramah and exams...
+ my piano exam..
heeadache arrr...
but oso feel time pass so soon..
oredi form 5..
next year no more uniform life..
mayb study form 6 then still uniform life...XD..
tis year we bcome the biggest senior in school..
hahahaha...dunno where look like senior oso..
i did miss my seniors lo...
ya...nid said 一路顺风to those seniors that will go NS..
kesiannya...
but i think i oso nid go oso..
nvm la..juz 3 months..
sigh...last day holiday...
enjoy it..
and hope everything will b alright tis year..
god bless me in spm!!!
haha

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

wowowowow..new year is coming..
is 2010 now..hahaha..
a new year is coming..
make a wish 1st..
i hope..
all the ppl that i noe will b happy forever..
and hope all my same age friends will sucess in spm...
well..2night have a party in my house..
many friends come..
and sing k..
but they damn no mood lo..
not high oso..hahaha..
but at last oso nt bad la..
quite a tired day..
but 1st time welcome the new year vf friends..
haha..hope gt other chances oso..
well..tis new year did make a different in my life..
a person that i close vf..noe vf..friend vf..
oredi nt around me..
haha...nt die..
juz the person graduate oredi..
me and that person gt a lot a lot of memories..
gt nice and bad..
but bad more lo..haha..
i did said clearly vf him yesterday...
at 31/12...
and i think i get the ans..
althought nt the ans that i wan..
but i satisfies oredi..
old year had passed...
hope i can buried the old memories that between me and him..
dun open it anymore..
juz...buried forever...forever and forever..
hope our life dun have intersection point again..
tired oredi..
well..
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
EVERYONE..ALL THE BEST IN THIS NEW YEAR..