new life

finally..
i decided to stop my piano..
i do feel sorry to teacher..
i noe teacher is dissapointed..
but..sorry..deeply sorry..
it's oso a hard decision for me..
but i noe if i choose continue learning..
i will still thinking abt tis ques..
it will b a non stop ques for me..
well..mayb i should insist complete the whole piano grade..
until grade 8..
but i think i reali nid stop for tis year..
mayb will continue after tis..
who noe?
i think if my spm result is good..
that's the best way to return teacher's intention..
said bck to school..
tis week definitely a busy week for me..
althought i'm nt chinese society..
but i do involve in their activity..
bcoz my best friend-LOK MAN YEE!
haiz..nvm la..
it's ok..
i did joined the singing competition..
hahaha..lose liao lo..
but i dun care la..
coz i din even care at the beginning..
so juz easy come easy go..
hmm..exam results oredi come out..
for ujian 1..
i wanna said..COOL!!
i will add oil too..
tis time exam..
i get 7A(include A+,A-,A)
2B+
and 1D...
SIGH!!!
spoilt my results..
but it's ok..
still gt time to add oil on it..
GAMBATEH!
said goodbye to the old life..
and said hello to the new start.
i hope my decision won't b the wrong 1..

nEw favourite.

moon river,wider than a mile

i'm crossing you in a style someday

oh,dream maker,you heartbreaker

wherever you're going i'm going your way

two drifters off to see the world

there's such a lot of world to see

we're after the same rainbow's end

waiting 'round the band

my huckleberry friend

moonriver

and me

thoughts

recently got so many thoughts..
especially after the piano lesson..
i felt that human reali nt that simple as i think..
some promises...
will forgot after make..
some secret..
will can't said after u feel wanna said..
something.
wanna shout out loud but scare let "other" notice..
2 many scares...
but i think is time to pack up my emo mood..
bcoz school gotta start..
and i gonna face bck to a lot of works..
ya...recently gt some ppl comment on my blog post..
honestly..i dunno who r them..
i hope i can noe..
bcoz i'm wondering now..
by the way..thanx them for notice my blog..

dream

i'm nt the ppl that have confidence..
no matter in wt things...
i do nt have the confidence..
especially in my piano..
i oways trust that..
i will like it someday..
i will like it someday..
but i CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i reali can't..
i do less cried after i go secondary school..
but i do oways cried for piano..
bcoz i reali dun like it..reali dun interested in it..
i have tried..
reali..i tried it so hard..
everytime i feel like i can..
but oso will reaslise..
that juz a dream..
2day get scold again..
ya...i veri less practise..
but i do practise a lot than b4 oredi..
i have tried make myself stay vf the piano for 1 hour..
or mayb 30 minutes..
but i reali can't..
juz feel like wanna run away from it..
i DUN LIKE it..
it gv me a lot a lot of bad memories..
but if i practise le..
so?
i still can't play well in front of teacher..
i still will get scold..
some friends think learn piano is a good thing..
but for me..
nt reali.

no idea

definitely no idea on what should i write..
2day gt a bit emo and moody..
i dunno y..juz feel it..
ya..tis week those seniors get the spm results..
but..quite a lot of them oso not as expected..
i gt a senior that i veri close vf..
and he got a bad results for him too..
i dunno how r his results..
but he seems like reali dissapointed for it..
quite worry for him..
hope he will b alright soon..
actually,i dun think results decide everything..
but it definitely decide for short term future..
but i think he veri clever le..
reali...and honestly..
i'm more stupid than him...
so much so much..
now oredi march..
time reali pass soon..
*thing to mention-april is my birthday month..XD
tis year in school..
still ok..
teachers still like me..
but i'm doing ntg tis year..
bcoz gt our "lovely" ketua..
but mayb bcoz of that..
i feel a bit lonely in school..
i nt sure izzit that relat to which ways..
mayb is bcoz the assitant job..
mayb is bcoz the most familiar stranger is not at school anymore..
that's too much possible and mayb..
it make me miss my grandma..
i will miss her when i feel alone,lonely,scare,pain..
i miss the childhood that passed 2gether vf her..
and now..
i'm trying to b strong..
b smart..
b good..
to make her proud..
althought she can't see it..
but i know she will feel it..
bcoz she will always blessing me,mum and my whole family..
no matter where is she..
recently..i'm thinking..love vf idol..
actually..couple vf idol..
is a dream of every fans..
but..it's unlogic..
coz u dun even noe the idol..
u juz noe his/her basic information..
how abt...
his/her personality?
his/her family?
that's too many ques that we still dunno yet..
so..conclusion of mine..
couple vf idol..
is a dream..
is a dream that can't achieve..
but not mean won't achieve..
love tis thing..
is unlogic,unplanning,unreasoning..
i do have a concept on love tis thing..
but i dun think i will gonna try it now..
or mayb future..
bcoz see those friends..
trouble for love..
sweet for love..
sad for love..
is too suffer for me..
i nid a stable life now..
but it's a part of life..
so..no comment on it..
by the way..
piano exam located at 1/4..
hope everything will b alright...