it's been a long time i didn't updated my blog!!
ermm..actually it mostly bcoz of i'm busying to adapt my new uni life..
and..of coz..i'm too lazy to update..hehe..
well...i'm now officially(actually quite late to do so) announce that...
I'M A UNI STUDENT!
hahaha....how proud should i?
well...with my uni student identity..
i still carry with my children face..
that's what my friends told me..
actually i'm not the youngest one in my friends group..
but..yea~i do look like the youngest one.. =='
ermm..what else to say?
i'm currently still nt really used to uni life...
especially when there's a big gap between my lecture...
but...anyway..my 1st sem is going to end soon..
so...i think it might be a good sign that showing actually i'm adapting it well..
btw..i do very very very emo during the day which all my friends were going to different states to continue study..
i look...extremely emo in school...
i knew it!
it just too sad to seperate with ur friends that...
some of them are already knew for 14 years?
or some of them are fight together vf u for one of the toughest exam in the world,STPM..
some of them are actually got the uni that very near to my school..
like..UM,UPM...
but yet..the time still always crash vf my time..
so i cannot really go and find them..
althought i drive school everyday..
ermm..my school is...FINE!
much more better than i expect..
i start to love tis school..
because it has some nice views..
as u guys noe..i do very enjoy lookin at the natural views...
so...i think tis is the only point i love tis school?
hahaha...yea..just for information to those do not noe which school i studying..
now i'm currently studying at monash university..
which is located at sunway...
the sunway uni just like..opposite of my school..
with the walking like...5-10 minutes..
yea..not to forgot mention...
our school lecturer are very nice..
i can't say all..bcoz i haven't meet all..
but so far the lecturer i had met...
they are all very nice and qualified..
(p.s: to become a lecturer in monash...u need to have ur phD)
so....our school do have a lotttttttt of doctor...
no matter is medicine doctor or the professional doctor..
sound cool?hahaha..
what else...ermmmm..abt my school...
my school's cafe food is....ehemmmmmm..
u all should know if i didn't type out a lot of compliment of that..
ya..not to forget..
my school library..
it was nice...
like..a neat library with quite a number of computers..
but it always not enough to let students use..
monash is just too many students...
especially international students..
while...the lecturers are mostly local...(i'm not looking down for local people..just mostly private uni also have many international lecturers)
and...the wifi in school is just getting worst and worst from day to day..
i dunno why..i hoping it going to fix soon..
anyway...
today...actually...i'm nt feeling down..
but...some memories just flashing in my brain..
like..uncontrollable..
mayb bcoz one of my friend talked abt a love story vf me today..
that's a story that about two guys falling in love to the same girl...
yea..i think it sound similar..
which...remind me my form 6 life..(have to declare..i'm nt trying to show off)
some people might think i very easy to let go that "stuff"
but..actually i put a lot a lot a lot of effort just to make me feel better..
and make them feel better..
i used many energies just to THINK..how to stay far away from them in school..
how can i make the relationship better?
without hurting their friendship..
yet...things turn out slightly different than what i think..
i have a good ending and a...not good ending?
i now still very friend to one of the guy..
but the other one..
i should say...i cannot understand?
is like..
the ppl who said wan bcome back friend is him..
the ppl who said wan add me back is fb is him..
but when i start to concern him as a friend..
he just trying to push me away..
i dunno is it i too sensitive or what..
but everytime i find him chat...
just to concern abt him for uni stuff..
he just will disappear..and the other day..
i will see a "facebook user" in my chat list..
which means..he deactivate his fb..
that's a very short period for him to deactivate..
but..yea..i'm nt stupid..
i can see it..
and in fact..
after he added me back in fb..
i have never ever see he put on9..
it..sound...strange..right?
it turn out an ending that both of us also dun wan..(i trust that)
but...i think it just better we cut off every contact..
just to let him or me feel better..
so...i unfriend him in fb..
before i did that decision..
i was very struggling..
i kept starring at my phone..
the unfriend button just keep show up and close..show up and close..
until one day that...
i狠下心....one shot..just click it..
then only my heart feel better..
and much more comfortable..
i believe that he felt the same way too..
bcoz after i unfriend..
his fb do look different..
he change his profile pic..which before tht..he do not put any profile pic..
and his fb started to have many groups pic..etc etc..
i started to feel like...
"en...i did not do wrong decision...we both also deserve a new start"
but i will feel very upset that..
i just losing a close friend like that..
well..i think in this world..
not everything will turn out as what u wish to..
so...just...
hold every chances if u wan it...
at least u try ur best..then..
regret will not exist! :)
